One more thing... Forgot to say... Congrats Siti, Alia, Zhi Xin, Shi Yun, Abbas and dunno who else on making it for the Work Attachment for June holidays. Since my dad didn't allow me to join, I'll make sure he brings me to KL on the 16th for 4 days I think and stay in a hotel for the first time in my life! My cousins on my dad's side are going and it's like a once-a-year thing that I meet them. I'd make sure he bring me!!!!!

(current mood: frowning cos my mum just... watevalah and remembering my dad makes me angry...)

Title: The anger within

Eh, what happened to my pink letterings?? Boo hoo... Gonna find a princess-like pic for my blog sumday.

Anyway, sry for not blogging for quite awhile. Busy, busy, busy...
I'll talk about yesterday and today then. Did Napfa yesterday and I got D for 2.4 km run!!! :D but only D :( The timing is 17:10. I jogged throughout the whole 4 rounds and then sprinted towards the end. First time in 2.4 km I ever did that, I always run, jog, stop, run, walk, jog, so it's quite an achievement for me. I want to get gold though... I need to get a few more cm for sit and reach, 1 cm more only for standing broad jump. As for 2.4 km run, I need to run 50 sec faster. Aiyo...

Then mt reading period. Cikgu Shafiee saw us in P.E. t-shirt and I think we smell, that's why he asked us if we wanted to go toilet. But the tone he used make us think that he doesn't want us in the air-con room... Then inside the room, I had to sit at the row below the row that I normally sit beside Imran I think. Siti said that Cikgu Asniah didn't allow us them to squeeze... then I sit alone like that! Last week was something alike. I was already sitting at the normal row. Then Siti came and said that she's very hot and wanted to sit inside, then I allow lor. Me so soft, always like this. Then Nuurul came and sat beside me, that Cikgu Asniah saw and asked the two of us at the side to move and sit at the first row with the boys. There, Nuurul asked me to move in first and again I gave in. (The whole thing I can't remember the situation. I might be wrong but I remember I was very angry at them.) Why can't Cikgu Asniah just allow us to sit as usual?? Nothing wrong what?? Not like we girls talk, the boys are the ones who always talk!! Irritating you know, always me have to give in... Urgh!

(my current status: a very irritated princess that is unable to let out all of her feelings for fear of hurting her friends' feelings)

Then mt period, did group work. Guess what? I volunteered to be presenter when no one wanted to take up the job... Urgh! Why am I born like this?? It's making my life miserable! Oh, fine about that! Had recess (not recess for me mind you), then literature (learnt bout poetic devices, quite interesting), then English (a rushed and embarrassing one... my teacher go and take my paper and I realised I haven't finish doing!) and then Chem (can't remember what we did). Ok, that's about it, I guess...

So, today... mt first period, presented the 'thing' with Siti (who again I gave in to take the shorter part!!!) where nobody was listening... Then people started asking Cikgu Alijah about her teen life, haha... Then had physics, Mr Mubarak gave us the summary for all the topics we've learnt to refresh our memory, quite helpful. Then bio, we got papers and lotsa papers. Then recess!!! Yay! Ate rice till I was so full trying to finish my plate. I gave my extra chicken which the nenek gave for free to Siti. Then had SS where we did source based qns but not many were listening to KFC Tan (he looks a bit like the KFC guy larz).

Finally, then assembly! We had dunno what body-language but it was very funny! Cherylene who sat beside me couldn't stop laughing! The guy on stage had some masks from Java and Bali and he acted so well in the masks to go with the expression on the masks he put on. He then asked for student volunteers at the end to be contestants in a show and all had to act to the expressions on the masks they got. Zul or whoever he is got the too cheery face, Jeevan got the know-it-all face, Nazrul got the sad face, Swati got the dunno wad face, Khalellolah or something like that got angry face and Celiana got blur face. Jeevan was the best but with the help of the guy on stage, all were great! Also very funny! Haha!

Then after all that blah blah blah, fumble, sweat, vroom, ting tong, home! Hehe...

(current status: smiling again, anger forgotten)

Looks like the assembly period made me smile again, hehe. Anyway, just now I saw a poster at the school bookshop, it had a picture of an empty field with one tree at one end and a poem at the other end. The poem was very sweet and touching though Siti said something like, "Crap." It is in first person talking to God, reminding himself that eventhough the whole world has turned away, God is always there to hear your prayers and stay with you...

Hmm... lets see the things that I've tried to change in my blog...
Background: unsuccessful
Music: Successful
Pic at start of page: successful but discarded
Links- open new browser: successful
Separate websites & blogs: successful
Special Thanks: successful
Hugs: successful but discarded

Side effect: Sidebar pushed to bottom

Other things I plan to add...
Frame
Background pic
Change font for sidebar

Ok, I guess that's all. Anyway, I've added Chapter One of "Friendship (rp)"(no title yet) to Secret Gate msn group. Sylvia has added Quidditch Chapter too. I just have to add a few things on Gryffindor's side before that chapter is fully completed. I also have to fit in the snowball fight somewhere. It's either magically made snowball on an autumn saturday or a real snowball fight in winter but for the latter (correct spelling?), I need to put the Quidditch match on another day.

Urgh! What i my mum rambling on and on about my eldest bro behind me. Kinda irritating cos it's like putting the burden on me to tell my bro everything. I mean he's sooooo busy and I'm soooooo busy too. Aiyo!

Anyway, I'm so excited for the Sec 3 camp. I took number 3 - the adventure group: all the caving, flying fox, water rafting and stuff. Coolieoz! Siti and Nuurul take number 4 - all same as 3 except no water rafting, replaced by visit to Malaysian school. Lucky Asri and gang and Izyan taking number 3 too, so not bad larz. Wanna know number 1 and 2? Well, 1 is the learning group - study plants there and all; and 2 is the cycling group - cycle until u wanna die for 7 hrs each day (though u get brand new bikes the school bought) and you may stop anywhere in the jungle. Creepy...

Ok, let's see.... aiya dunno wad else to say, just cyaz!

Phew! Got back from religious class and juz remembered, "Eh, I haven't research for my IPW! I still have Physics, E-Maths and Bio too!!!" Haha, well... Anyway, for those in my class and wondering wad E-Maths or wad Bio, it's juz me so dun mind me kkz.

Anyway, Isilme Elen is back! So dun 4get to visit hor and if can, join the Shire! And my blog looks horrendous from the misuse of html. Urgh, need to change again someday.

Well, I've got lotsa things to do, update another time! Bye!

Hello again after so long! Just had my HML oral exam this morn and Eng P1 yest. I think I did quite ok for both larz, but of cos I can't be too sure...

To get you informed, Isilme Elen was hacked for the 3rd time a few days ago. Simone is trying to get a new err... is it server? for it. I don't know to wish it to hurry up or to take time... If it goes up soon, I'll get addicted again and won't start studying but I'll get bored if it's going to take a long time.

Anyway, there's progress in my part of the fanfic me and Sylvia are writing. I can't wait to continue after this. It's fun to write. While reading my pri 6 compo book on Thursday for yest's Eng P1, I came across a compo about me meeting a boy in detention class and being attracted to him and now I've decided to continue the story.... Hehe...

Hmm... just wondering... Does anybody like keep charm bracelet? I'm going to start this year by buying the bracelet and continue on buying one lucky charm each year starting from next year. It sounds like fun. Besides, it's a great thing to do: you can look at the bracelet and remember your past, like where you bought the charm and stuff. I might buy them from overseas (but I doubt so since I dun go anywhere further than KL) or probably from Perlini's Silver. The lucky charms there are $12. Then the bracelet, I'm getting it at Isetan. It has 11 rings, 10 for the 10 years I'm gonna collect the lucky charms and 1... dunno, maybe for letter M (Marliyana) or L (Liyana) or Y (Yana) I guess...

Ok! Just to say one last thing, just now my mum tried doing the hand thing to find out how many children you have (try clapping your hands hard and then clasping one close very tightly. Something will appear on your wrist and count). She told me I'd probably get 3 boys (right wrist) and 1 girl (left wrist). Sounds cool? Speaking of that, I remembered myself wishing I'd get twins when I grow up and my friend told the whole class. It was sooo embarrassing!!! Now I think of it, it's gonna be tough bringing up twins, hehe...

Ok, I'll get going now. I have a fanficto write here! Tataz!

From morning till now my mum keeps nagging at me and I don't think they are for my own good really!
Anyway, just got back from dinner, so full... Ok, I'll tell you about today's events... Nah, I don't feel like talking...
(after about 2 hrs of being away, going online, going away and bla bla bla...) Yay! A poem! I did it all on my own in about 1/2 an hr. Here goes:

As I walked along the stealthy river,
I remember the times we spent together.
But now that you are gone forever,
Oh how am I supposed to go on my dear?

Days and months have already passed.
And I realised that all Father have said was true.
I should have gone across the sea in the past.
But no, I won't regret. I did it all for me and you.

How will I live?
How will I fare?
I still believe,
That this world's unfair...

But this path I have chosen,
And this path I will lead.
I'll continue on without our children,
Until the time we will again meet.

What do you guyz think? It's in Arwen's point of view when Aragorn has 'died'.

5 tests tomorrow! 1st will be English Paper 2 (common test), 2nd is Chemistry (or E-Maths first, dunno), 3rd is E-Maths (or Chemistry), 4th is Physics practical and 5th is Biology... Why am I online then? Don't ask me, I oso dunno...
Argh! I so, so, so wanna change my template!!! And I want to create a sweeter website! I look so gothic, but I dun hav time... Haiz... Aiya, I dunno what to say lah *scratches head* So well, I guess see you another time then, tataz! And guyz, sry no more WoW, my head feels like bursting already...

Yay! Got new car! Not toy car ar, my dad changed his car lah. It's almost the same, just the colour and a bit more different. I love it! It's so nice to be in it though it may be one of the cheapest one around nowadays.
Anyway, me and Sylvia are getting on with our fanfic based on the RP we did last year. She's Aurelia while I'm Catherine. I'll write a bit and her, another bit. We'll then put them up together at Secret Gate and ta daa! Our first fanfic together. But well, as for now I won't be dreaming so far yet 'cause we're not even half of the fanfic! Anyway, you can visit the Quidditch Match written by Sylvia at Secret Gate. I like that blog... so sweet...
Anyway, I have a stomach ache, I've yet to do my homework or started studying AND I feel like continuing my part of the fanfic: the intro... So, cyaz y'all!

Yay! Me and my mum start talking already!!! We started yesterday when my aunt was admitted to hospitalthen she asked me want to go or not. Now we talking like normal again. But of course there's this gap. As the Malay saying goes, the wound might have healed but the marksill still be there.
Anyway, the Book Talk yesterday was... fine... Not so good, 'cause we couldn't load the powerpoint fast enough and then we talked too fast and we didn't make eye contact with the audience and all. But it was ok... there were people listening (a few librarians, a few from 3/4 and the rest Ms Low's class or just people visiting the library.
Sigh... my throat not sore anymore but I keep coughing, bad cough one. Then I kept biting my right cheek (the part where the top and bottom teeth like vampire's fangsand so yesterday I bit again accidently while eating and I think I punctured a blood vessel, 'cause got quite a lot of blood and it was sooooo painful!). Aiyo...
Ok I dunno what to say. I just would like to know who likes LotR here? Please put up your hand at my tagboard. Also who thinks I should cut my hair? Also put up your hand if yes and please state which question you answering (argh! I forgot! is this the correct spelling?) WoW... forget it, just remember my blog, :P

Wah! My comp juz now got 43 (or more) adware/spyware and the exe virus! Then quarantine, delete, whatever... left 25. Now cleaning again. It's so irritating cos the comp so slow and keeps getting stuck! I can't even chat with Sylvia yesterday. *opens comp monitor and picks out virus one by one* Not only does my comp have virus but me too! Well, sort of. I have a sore throat and a runny nose. My brain oso like exploding and my muscles feel so stretched!!!
Sry peeps, so many !!! Can't stand it. Tmr got Physics test summore and the A Maths assignments I dunno how to do, how to pass mid yr?!?!?! Like impossible ya noe! Both E Maths class test I failed, aiyo...
Urgh! Then my eyes like going bad. Must eat more carrots. I oso need more calcium, my back like so arched like that, aiyo... (ok, after learning Bio...)
Anyway, I didn't even get to go to Afterworld, blargh! I should have bought tickets earlier and so then can tell my mum I already bought tickets so can't waste. She gave me so many excuses. She cook already lah, too expensive lah, this that. Then when I was going out, she was praying so I just open the door and go out lor. Then I reach the interchange, she sounded so angry over the phone and asked me to come home straight. So like what you noe! Aiyo!
Actually her reason was that in the morning when she wanted to go out to the market (which includes Cash Converter sumhow), she asked me to follow and I say tired this that this that. But really ar, she's going like... urgh! Then afternoon, Nuurul (Khairiyah so long larz) called me and asked me if I can lend her some brooch for her scarf cos she need to go out and forgot to bring. Since I already told my mum I tired just now right, I told Nuurul I ask my mum first. I was expecting her to say about the morning incident, but she didn't. Instead she asked me to go. Eh! Like this not angry you know! Then while meeting Nuurul we met Siti and Siti asked me to follow her to Afterworld. I did feel guilty you know that I didn't follow my mum in the morning and then now I want to accompany Siti. So I told Siti I'll ask my mum first. At home, I asked her and sure enough she said no (very angry). She said why so expensive. I said cos got food. Then she say she cook already. Ok fine, I called Siti and told her I can't go. But then, Siti said she got free ticket from her netball teacher and her younger sister not at home while her older sister don't want to go, so she asked me. Then my dad came home. So I asked him instead, but still infront of my mum. He then said if I want to go then go lar, which is what I did of course. And my mum didn't say eh, oh or ah or whatever. So I thought can lor! Then go interchange... ^blah blah blah, so embarrassing. Siti was already so excited got someone to accompany her then she had to go alone... And me, I was stuck at home being Cinderella cleaning my room from the mess my mum decided to send a tornado to.
Aack! This is all I can do, blog! There's no one I can talk to. Maybe Sylvia... but what? Tell her the whole story and bore her to death?? Of course not! Lucky I have my blog. I definitely noe my parents not good with computer skills and if they do somehow master it quietly, I won't mind them reading what I've written. Read what's in me. Ever since my eldest brother go U and my 2nd brother go army camp (after some complication, he not allowed to go home often and so I only see him sometimes), I've been so alone. I miss especially my 2nd brother. He played a huge role in my life! Ok, I'm crying now, that means I really miss him, ok...
Someone help! I feel so... lost, fragile and whatever else! Help... *collapses on floor*

Eeek! What's that on your head? April Fool!!! Ok whatever. I'm so stressed!!! Got Book Talk rehearsal tomorrow then today need to edit the ppt and write my script and do that lit project! Aiyo how to finish?!?! Tired you know. Aiyah, then my comp like have no graphic, no animation, sickening you know! Anyway peeps, please attend the book talk on 8th April at school library cos we put in so much effort into it so you all better come, or else...